Ahhh..... I am in pure bliss... doing nothing extraordinary other than sitting at Starbucks, enjoying a cup of coffee and reading my emails, uninterrupted and without the pressure of a ticking clock that starts as soon as I put Caedmon down for his nap. Okay, I have X number of minutes/hours to myself, starting... NOW! ... On second thought, this little respite at Starbucks IS pretty extraordinary.
Since school let out at the end of May, I have been adjusting to my new schedule. Without any sub jobs to fill my weeks (previously, I had been subbing on an average of twice a week), I simultaneously have more and less time. I have more time, since I don't have to work, but almost all of that time is taken up by an active toddler who is now transitioning to one nap, which he still takes earlier in the morning, leaving a LONG stretch of wake time from noon until bed time. At the end of the day, I am exhausted, and I have gotten nothing done.
I miss reading. And paying bills even... without heavy eyelids and nodding off, half sitting up in bed, pen marks on my sheets from where my arm dropped, drool glistening in the corners of my mouth. Isn't motherhood beautiful?
And so today, my little jaunt to Starbucks is extra rewarding and refreshing. It's like unclenching a muscle that I didn't even know was wadded up into a rock, welcoming that release of pent up tension, allowing relaxation, in the form of dark roast, to wash over me. Ahhh... solitude and free time...........
This is therapy.
On a related note, this video parody of Taylor Swift's "22" pretty accurately and hilariously depicts my life at 32... perusing my closet for yet another comfy cotton outfit, falling asleep to Downton Abbey, bookworm, the whole bit. When did I slip into such a mundane existence?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OUTTrgZSigQ
Haha! What a funny parody! So, as I was watching it, I thought, "They dress like cute, young people! Not like people in their 30's!" But then I realized that I liked their style because my friends and I are all around our 30's! Haha!
ReplyDeleteCeci, you wear 32 well. And you can throw some Oxyclean in your awesome front-loading washing machine to get the pen marks off your sheets. (Your singing the praises of Oxyclean is also pretty "32.")